I TRIED

I TRIED.. 

I tried to be who you wanted me to be
          your sex slave
         your Bonnie to your Clyde lifestyle.
I gave you the Best Head 
Isn't that what you said? 
Instead you of loving me you manipulated my mind to build yourself up 
Got on you feet and looked down on me. 
You said we were good but that changed 
You even said I would wear your last name
I tried......
What was it about her that made you make love to her in my face as if I wasn't in the there?
Her moans & arch in her back like she missed your loving.
Imagine that...
you just don't get it, do you?
After all the Bulls**** I still had love for you
But eventually got tired of trying to be your Pedastool 
You didn't like the New Me!
NEW Job, New Car, New Attitude 
as long as I depended on you, you thought I would need you.
I built up my confidence and broke all your rules. 
You told me no one would love me like you..
But when you found out that I was Happy 
You said I was acting Brand New !
You had the nerve to pull up and bring all your clothes to move in with me.
I closed the door 
Love don't live here anymore !
You were Ray Charles to Your own mess that you hadn't realized you had broken me down and I had no more fight in me.
I looked you in your eyes and replied. 
I TRIED

INWARD STRENGTH

HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE THE WORLD WAS CRASHING. BUT YOU HAD TO TRY TO BEAT THE WORLD WITH EVERY LAST BREATH IN YOU BECAUSE OF THE LITTLE PEOPLE WHO BELONG TO YOU ARE LOOKING UP TO YOU?
WELL THIS IS WHERE I HAVE BEEN THE PAST FEW DAYS. AFTER ALMOST 4 YEARS OF CHRONIC PAIN THE SMALLEST THINGS SET THE FLARE UPS. DOCTORS MISDIAGNOSING YOU. YOU'RE UNABLE TO DO 1/2 THE THINGS YOU USE TO DO. NOBODY CALLS TO CHECK ON YOU AND YOU'RE STILL FIGHTING FOR HOPE THAT THERE WILL BE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.
 YOU MAY SPEND DAYS CRYING WITH ANXIETY ATTACKS. DON'T EVER BE ASHAMED OF THOSE TEARS THAT IS YOUR BODY RELEASING THE PAIN SO THAT YOU CAN BUILD INWARD STRENGTH.
1. CHANGE YOUR WAY OF THINKING
2. TRY MEDITATION
3. PRAYER
4. REMEMBER SOFT MUSIC AND LEVELS OF HRTZ CAN REACH THOSE INTERNAL CHANNELS
 WHATEVER IT TAKES TO REBUILD THOSE TORN WALLS DO IT!
ITS NOT EASY PUTTING THE BROKEN PUZZLE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN! JUST REMEMBER SOMEBODY STORY MAY BE WORSE THAN YOURS.

STAY STRONG